I still don’t really have any feelings. I have very little felt sensation of myself. It’s frustrating, because until I feel safe enough to feel emotions, there seems to be little I can do to regulate them. Off = stuck on max setting.
I don’t really have a strategy for dealing with this. It hasn’t happened in a long time. I know this used to be how I felt all day, every day, but I am not accustomed to it anymore and I don’t like it.
I have suicidal and self-harming urges, but they aren’t embedded within any context. There is no real place to go with them.
I don’t know what to do.