I am so very tired. I seem to be coping, but I am just more and more tired. I keep catching one cold after another. I have this magic zinc spray that really does work, and the colds last only a few days. Then I get a new one. But I am not really tired because of the colds. That’s just one piece of things.

I am tired because I’m sad. I am really, really, really sad.

I miss Nata and I miss Grusha and I am sad about the baby dying. I am just buried under sadness.