So that helped—the last post. Astonishingly so. I know exactly what I am angry about and who I am angry about it for, and the clarity of it is just delightful.

I am angry at Yuri for creating the life he did for Natalya and I. I am angry at Natalya for thinking that risking her life was an option. It was her life to risk, but I am still angry about it.

It’s hard to be angry at Natalya, but it was harder when it was vague and unclear and I couldn’t sort out the reason for it except that she’s dead and it’s natural that we feel angry as a part of the grieving process.

Anyway, thanks for listening. At least one thing is a bit sorted.