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C is safe

I survived. My guardian angel came or God pitched in or I turned out to be more capable than I was. But it was okay. I went to school early in the morning. I thought I would be busy in the afternoon and whatever conversation needed to happen with C ought to be done early. … Continue reading

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Deception

One of the traumas that keeps running through my mind—not directly, but sort of vaguely, like I am keeping it on the periphery of my thoughts—has to do with the films. The girl-on-girl ones tended to have an element of deception involved. They were not frank sexuality in the way that straight films are. Very … Continue reading

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Alone

On Sunday, some of my students come to my house to study. They came on Friday and they came again today. Before and after, I am thinking about this aloneness—the sense of life without a partner, and without Nata. After they leave, it starts to occur to me that it’s really natural. It’s not entirely … Continue reading

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Too much

On Saturday, Class 7 and 8 students have their maths exam. Nearly all of Class 7 are my old students and 1/3 of Class students are. So I feel worried about them. How are they doing this year? And I go early to school. I know they will all have questions, and the thing is … Continue reading

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Six extra arms

I reread an article about callous, unemotional children—fledgling psychopaths. It is helping me to understand some things. It says there is a genetic component to it, that not all children who score low in factors related to empathy become psychopathic but some do. I guess my thought is that callous people may not always be … Continue reading